Something’s wrong.
I stopped dead
in my tracks as I
passed through the gate
startling the pre-dawn stillness.
I was on my way to the river.
It was dark.
Gazing up at my beloved
Cottonwood Cathedral
I couldn’t see,
But why couldn’t I feel her Presence?
A hole
ripped through my heart.
Dread seeped in.
Some alien force
had shattered the Peace.
When I reached the river
La Llorona was sobbing
her veil of mist
smudging the trees with a shroud.
Retracing the path at dawn
the terrifying sight of
severed limbs –
the loss of
supple arches
that swept the ground
with their bountiful grace,
limbs bowed low in surrender…
shattered the wonder of this holy place –
twisted knives in my gut.
To lose a holy place
is to be annihilated.
Both the trees and I
have lost our limbs
like the handmaid once did
to mindless slaughter
by those that neither
see or feel.*
Never again will
we rejoice in the
reciprocal
joy that the holy
bestows on
those that are
capable of Love.
Working Notes
For three years I have walked through the Cathedral of Cottonwoods, sometimes two or three times a day just for the simple pleasure of feeling the peace that these Matriarchs of the Bosque bestow upon anyone who can feel their benign yet powerful presence. In just one place beyond the gate the holy lived… and day after day year after year I would stop just to feel the peace – amazing grace. This spot was my sanctuary, the one place on this property that somehow felt like it belonged to me as I did to her.
Today my sanctuary has been destroyed forever. This tree destruction occurred either in my absence or sometime during this past week when my dog has been so ill that I have barely stepped out the door except to make a harrowing trip to the vet. My neighbor, the owner of this property is responsible for this act of senseless violence.
My body is still struggling to process the magnitude of this loss. Intentional or not it feels malevolent. Each time I walk through this area someone in me screams out “NO NO, not here.” My most beloved place. Gone, the severed limbs will bare ugly scars until the tree itself returns to the earth in death…
The worst part of this story is that the severing of the arms of the tree accomplished virtually nothing. These beautiful arches were beyond a fence and part of a path to the river that only I walk daily. Ironically, the man left many dead, dangling branches hanging over the same area.
The severed tree limbs remind me of “The Handmaid’s Tale.” In this story a father betrays a glorious apple tree that is also his daughter for money. This bargain with the devil intensifies as the dark one then insists the father chop off the girl’s hands. At this point after a second unconscionable betrayal the woman – child leaves home with her severed hands and throws herself on the mercy of Nature, who eventually restores the young woman to wholeness.
My beloved cottonwoods will not have their limbs restored but perhaps there’s a message in this story for me.
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